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Philip St. Romain
1.
From Original Embedment in the Dynamic Ground of
Conscious ness to the Mental-Conceptual Ego. From "Am"
to "I am my self-concept." A. Through acts
of Repression, the "I" of self-awareness sep arates itself
from the mother, the Dynamic Ground, the body, and
precognitive energies, finally coming to rest in
the cortex, where
it identifies with the powers of the cortex--especially
speech and thought. B. Attitude of
Mental Ego: "I think, therefore I am." Mental Ego is that
which it thinks it is--i.e., its self-concept. C. Using the
metaphor of self-concept as a house, we can say that the "I"
of self-awareness lives in the house of self-concept, and
peers out at the world through its win dows. The "I"
sometimes journeys out of its conceptual house during
ecstatic experiences (e.g., sex, sports, cre ative work,
movies), but its true home is in the house of self-concept,
and not outside. 2.
From
Mental-Conceptual Ego to Spirit-Centered Ego. A. From "I am
myself concept" to "I am a Christian moved by the
Spirit." B. Egoic
structure is still Mental-Conceptual, self-awareness bonded
with self-concept, but self-concept is centered in Christ,
and the defenses have been loosened so that energies from
the Spirit may enter Ego. C. The
self-conceptual house has its windows opened so that loving
energies from without may flow through. Ener gies also enter
this house from the unconscious and the Ground below. The
interior of the house is arranged to give glory to Christ.
The "I" is growing comfortable with the energies outside the
house, since they flow through the house itself. Through
natural and prayerful ecstatic experiences, the "I" is
becoming accommodated to life outside the house. 3.
Regression
of the Ego in the Service of Transcendence. A. The forces of
Original Repression are reversed as the Ego is allowed to
experience its unconscious base. B. The
unconscious is healed of emotional pain, allowing the deeper
energies of the Ground, or Soul, to emerge into
consciousness. This energy from the Ground, or Soul Energy,
is kundalirti. C. With the
healing of emotional pain, the bond between the "I" of
self-awareness and self-concept is broken. The "I" feels
disoriented at first, and tries to "find itself," i.e.,
reconnect with self-concept. D. The Ground
turns out to be more than cool, fertile dirt:
it was really an
inactive volcano. At this stage, the vol cano becomes
active. With the eruption of steam and magma, the "I" flees
the house of self-concept. Hence forth, it lives in ecstasy,
although at first this is experienced as
dissociation. E. Still
centered in the Spirit, the "I" does not panic. The "I" does
not give up its right to be; rather, it asserts its right to
be. This is the meaning of the Scriptural idea of wrestling
with God. Sitting in the eye of the volcano, the "I" does
not move, but learns to wait patiently for the next phase,
which it knows to be coming. A. The "I" of
self-awareness becomes integrated with the "Am" of the
Dynamic Ground, or Soul. C. There is a
return to the cosmic experience of the Great Mother, as the
"I" now enjoys the energies of the Dynamic Ground within,
and, in place of the nurturing parent, the Cosmos without,
which is one with the Ground.
4.
Realization of the True Self. "I Am."
B. The house of self-concept can be seen on the slope of the
volcano, but the "I" does not live there any longer. It has
found a new home for the energy it is receiving: the body.
In reconnecting with the primal energies of the body, the
"I" experiences itself as an energy body within the physical
body
D. The awareness of the "I" is experienced as arising from
the Ground itself. The "I" now sees from its "Am," or root.
This is the realization of the True Self.
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